If you hadn't noticed already, I can tell you that I am one of those persons who are always starting new projects and turning mere ideas into real things. The problem is that, like you can imagine, I can't finish them all. And if I do, I spend much longer on them than expected.
Why?
Well, that is simply because I am a lazy human. So many projects can't be finished by just one person, unless she is extremely organized and responsible, which I am not. Unfortunately, I am one very lazy girl. It is not that I don't want to work, but that I don't have the will or the sufficient energy to work.
And WHY?
Because I am a depressed person. Depressed as in someone who was born with a condition, a chemical dis balance in her brain. She cannot do anything to fix it, but to take anti-depressives for the rest of her life. And if she doesn't take them as she should, the treatment doesn't work and her brain doesn't work to its full capacity. Just like a computer that is not being maintained with enough dedication.
I really wish to help others. I also love to do a good job and satisfy whoever should be satisfied with it. When I make a website, when I make some drawing, when I design a logo... All those things are important to me. But then, why do I let myself get driven even deeper into that depression?
I don't really know. But I have to do something about it.
If I really wish to finish all my projects someday, improve my skills, and be a successful adult, then I have to take my condition seriously. Until then, expect me to be delayed in everything I do.
I am very sorry.